Today

No I dont have on any mascara or eyeliner, shadow or lipstick. I am not dressed to impress and I really dont care. Dont keep telling me I look tired. I just want to shout out or put a sign up somewhere that says, "Hi my name is __________ and my tit hurts like hell. This is not new to me but just when I thought it went away and I could possibly cancel my appointment on Friday, it is back with a vengence." I want to say I dont have to be all prim and dolled up everyday because I am fabulous with or without makeup. Shit I am 29 and I just started wearing the stuff last year. Try sitting all day and just being in pain with no explanation or idea of when it will stop. LEAVE ME ALONE!!!! For right now I am not here. my mind can only focus on one thing at a time and that is trying to forget the pain. So until I get that under control dont say shit to me. NOBODY!!! When I am back I'll let you know but I know I wont know until at least after my doc appointment on Friday. I am thanking to God for each new day and I know HE wont give me more than I can handle. I just want to know what it is I am handling. Just trying to keep my head above water...