Dear Jake

I see that you are trying to be better. After I mentioned that I was cleaning and you were flicking the channels you got up and helped a bit. You cleaned up after yourself after YOU cooked dinner for the family on my non-cooking day. We talked and laughed about a few things. You handled Sam and his homework and the heat was on in his room this morning before he woke up. I am still bummed about the car situation and the toilet but I have to continue to take one day at a time and thank God for the small things. For your effort and the hope that in the end we are both reaching for the same goal. Yes things are tough now but knowing that we both want it to be better gives me hope. You even agreed to go to the church for the couples ministry on handling conflict resolution. When I asked you were we going and made a joke of how jacked up we are and that we need every bit a help we can get, you agreed that we need to be on the front row early. It was funny but true and that helped. You hugged me and gave me a kiss. I know that seems small but you haven't done that in a long time. It was before it was time to go to bed and very random and I thank you for that. Thank you for trying. I am going to try harder too. I know we can do this.