Just come

This morning I woke up and cried because I had to come to work. I am totally depressed that I actually have to be here. I have made the most wonderful friends and have people to talk to but I am still incomplete. As I drove to the train station I cried and listened to Christian radio to try and get my head in the game but it just made me feel like I have been missing so much. God put me on this Earth for something and I KNOW I am not doing it. I complain a lot about my situation even though it honestly is not that bad. I should be helping people. There are teenagers out there that I know I can reach and people that need a helping hand but that doesn't make any money. I mention money only because I have a family that needs to be fed and have a roof over their heads therefore I cant afford to do work that doesn't pay. The bible says that the Lord will supply all my needs according to his riches and glory but I realized I am not jumping out there and allowing him to make great moves in my life because I am scared. There is a song that CeCe Winans sings called "I surrender all" When I think about those words I get sad because I would love to give all but to give up everything, safety, comfort, self is hard to do. It gets a little overwhelming when I think about it. (I probably shouldn't see it this way but I do)

Get a new job
Give back to society
Develop a better relationship with God
Teach Sam to trust God for everything (even though I don't always)
Pay tithes faithfully
Have a better relationship with my husband
LOVE MYSELF!!!!
Lose weight
eat better
Love more

There are so many other things on that list and I know that if I surrender all, it wouldn't get better right away but it would get easier over time.

So I am sitting here writing this blog and this song comes on my IPhone. WOW God is all I have to say.

Be encouraged. I have a lot to learn and do but I will be OK. Thanks for listening.

Song is called Just Come

When I promised you
You could trust me
I meant every word that I said
You know I understand
What you're going through
You don't have to face the night all by yourself

(chorus)
Just come, come to me
It hurts me when you cry
I won't leave you alone
When you need a hand to hold
I will be there
I'll always care

Sometimes the world can be
Such a lonely place
And you don't feel you're where you belong
It's in those times I wish
You would talk to me
Cuz if you're weak
My love will make you strong

(chorus)

What matters now
Is the love that we share
Let's pick up the pieces and go on, go on from here
Grab hold to me
And I'll set you free...

Leave your problems behind
I'll be there all the time
Just Come
My hands are stretched out wide
I will there there and I'll always care
Come on Come on I'll set you free (yes I will)
I'll never leave your side
I'll be right there all the time
Come
I'll never leave you alone
I will be there
I'll always always care
Just Come