Don't self destruct

I realized I was self destructing. To deal with my issues I started to drink and smoke again. I, for some reason, thought it would be better if I drank to stop feeling the way I felt. It worked until I had to keep waking up with a hang over and probably an ugly liver. But this has been a new week for me. I decided that the best way to feel better about my situation is to work on myself. I start dance classes on February 5th and I am excited to learn new moves and gain a new appreciation for myself.
My home life may stay the same but I refuse to go downhill with it. I am eating breakfast every morning now courtesy of one of the Three Stooges (co workers). We sat down and set goals for ourselves and are beginning to do what is necessary to achieve them. We are going to start going to the gym at lunch and bring $5.00 per week to cover purchasing healthy snacks for the office. Am I my brothers' keeper? Yes I AM!
I decided to walk while my son is at track practice and before his meets. It makes no sense to have a track at my disposal and not use it. Sunday was the first time I walked the track before his meet and it was great! I even attempted to jog a little. I am also going to the gym after I get things done in the house. Instead of the bar I will be a regular on the elliptic machine. I am excited about becoming a happy person again. I am excited to take control of my situation and live in the moment. Put God first and work my butt off. I want this more than anything. Things are not the greatest right now a home but I have to get better for myself. Self destruction is not the answer. You should never allow someone to pull you down to the point where you no longer love yourself.
I thank God for my friends and my mom who constantly encourage me to rise above it all.

I WILL RISE (and get fit and fabulous while I do it!!)