I know this is crazy but I dream about you almost every night. I see your face so clearly as we walk down the street laughing or when we are making love. I cannot figure out why I can't get you off my mind. You are married now and have made it clear to me that you have no interest in even being my friend. The last time we talked was about four years ago. When you saw him you never spoke to me again. I think you are the only person I wishthings had been different with. Oh now don't get me wrong I don't want to be with you and I am happy that you are happily married. I think the reason I dream about us together is because it is so far fetched and when we were together so many years ago we made magic. I think I am a little jealous too. I mean you got the girl a d apparently got the kid too so you felt no need to get closure or to now the truth. Juan says I never gave you a choice to be the man you may have wanted to be. Well I am sorry for that. I wad hurt and I thought I was protecting myself and him from any future disappointments. I didn't know I was hurting you too. I'm sorry. I don't know why it has been so hard for me to let this go. I look for you on FB but you did not respond. When I drive pass your moms house I slow down just a bit hoping I'll catch you in town visiting. At the end of the day I want closure. I want to know the truth. Some times I look at him and I see you buy I'm just not sure. I wish I had been more careful back then. I wish thee was something I could do to get you off my mind and especially out of my dreams. What do I do?